carried,uncared boundaries....
demarcating empty spaces...
of tubular experiences....
in the midst of a void...
all focusin into the centreless ...radiusless diameters....


unventured partnerships...
of disjointed stocks...
all fresh and geeky...
reeking with the blood of feud....
damages unfulfilled....
in a world of liabilities...
nothing is but an asset.


untempered studiousness of paperback...
better call them papermaches...
untampered texts of unrealized dreams...
in classrooms ...mechanical...
unoriented undiagonised desires....
lost in big amounts will be the faces ...
...that are now floating in seas of futile words...
only figures matter....
matter too is rendered futile.


what to see?
where to go?
can't one archaelogize the system???

...now...how do you see her??....is she the source of light in the darkness...or the cause of the shade behind her??

As a student of Literature..everybody around me says that i have many job options...some often thrust their own desires on me..they say...you can write well..."well..well"...what they don't seem to know or at least don't want to is...they are thrusting their own desires on me...living their fantasies through my life..."a burden far-fetched..multi-levelled"...i am having this terrible dilemma since quite a few days...What do i do with my life??...it's difficult ...terribly difficult to realize your true potential when people around you tell you what you are capable of....not because you think they are wrong...but because you think you are to be trapped in the same conventional web..of thinking in terms of right and wrong..and what you desire most ..is to go beyond.It's easy to be right when the society is wrong...but tremendously difficult to be right when they too are right..."when to be deviant is the desire...to think differently is the aim"....but the fallacy lies in the fact that similarizing sameness is often unique...different as you would like to call it...


.....what is more difficult is when you have already considered yourself unique...how to be unique...and then you get trapped in your own uniqueness...those who think they are special...beyond the normative are often enmeshed in their own "beyond-ity".Life's too hard sweat-heart...there's the same pit-fall almost everywhere...

What do we do then...listen to THE ALCHEMIST author ...follow your dreams??is he practical enough??....or flow with time??...
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You must be wondering why i raised the job question...well..that's because..trust me...i am at crossroads...of Life....as you are...may be...you just didn't realize!!!

I really don't expect you to answer my questions..i know that you don't know and if you thought that i knew..you know not that i never knew...still...i need to offer you a consolation..so that you don't feel bewildered..and visit my blog again...though modern trends have already proved the contrary...ah!!...what was i talking about??...i remember..."consolation"...great word..isn't it?


....."Fare forward"....that's my consolation....yes..you guessed it right...!!it's Bhagwad Gita...i can only follow what i feel to be righteous(mind you..it may not be right!)...and just be a patient in the hospital of life...

...if you thought i am preaching...i am not...i have better things to do...but then..you always have the option of thinking again!!!

...Now...think it out for yourself...is this a consolation??....or just a mere philosophy??.....by the way....who said that each one of us has the power to turn a consolation into the philosophy of a life lived??